Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Where we are grateful.
We came to Oahu so Jeff could have a business meeting.
That's why we only stayed three days.
Saturday was our last day
and we found the most amazing place:
Hanauma Bay.
So beautiful!
Off to Maui.
Where the humpback whales frolic.
Where the road to Hana is narrow and winding.
Where the beaches are vast and beautiful.
Where the vistas are breathtaking.
It's where we LOVE to go
(well, we pretty much love going anywhere)!
(well, we pretty much love going anywhere)!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Friday, January 18, 2013
A Study in Comparison.
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| May 2012 |
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| January 11, 2013 |
We had our biggest snow storm last weekend!
Is it only January 18?
Here are some things I loved this week:
I loved a lot of this.
Lovely art on a matchbook!
A thoughtful, beautiful and touching post
on this bloggers experience
with infertility and depression.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Words.
He's just the same as before.
Nothing has changed
but two more words:
Schizoaffective Disorder.
There are still those two other words that we know so well:
Autism and Anxiety.
Those two new words come as no surprise.
Except for his.
The other night,
he asked me once again,
to tuck him in
and sit in his room as he
fights with the voices in his head
(some voices with words and some voices mumbled).
He lamented,
Isn't there a cure for Autism?
A wordless pause.
Hadn't you heard what the doctor said?
Did I not tell you what she said?
You've been hearing voices since you were ten.
He quickly corrected me
and said, "nine".
She says you also have Schizoaffective Disorder.
Another wordless pause, and he asks,
"What is that"?
Another wordless pause
and a deep breath.
It's similar to Schizophrenia in many ways
but also with some mood problems too,
like depression.
"Well, that makes sense," he says.
Then he is quiet.
I know he is thinking this through
and my heart drops to my stomach.
"I hate my life",
he cries out.
He says a few other hard to hear things
out of frustration, desperation
and I guess, fear.
You are no different than you were last week.
Your medicine is the same.
The doctor thinks about you just the same.
She likes you just the same.
"But it changes what job I can have".
No it doesn't
(not that it won't be difficult,
we know it will be,
but it's his symptoms
---symptoms he has had for years---
that makes many things difficult,
not a diagnosis)
(not that it won't be difficult,
we know it will be,
but it's his symptoms
---symptoms he has had for years---
that makes many things difficult,
not a diagnosis)
We still have to find a job for you that works,
just the same as before.
Everyone has to find a job that works just for them,
no matter what.
We talked about other things
he was worried about
until he was through.
I sat there just the same,
as I frequently do,
until his breathing gets deeper and slower
and I know he is asleep.
I brush his hair with my hand,
gently kiss his forehead and
say those three words,
that are just the same,
I love you.
Friday, January 11, 2013
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