Yin And Yang Or Something Like It.

Love the warmer weather

and how it makes me feel.

Frustrated with not knowing what to do with a certain kid

(well really, more than one certain kid)

and not knowing exactly how much to push 

and how much to hold back

because yes, somethings are beyond his control

and he is struggling so much

but somethings he is capable of doing so much more.

Excited to be able to go see Hunger Games tomorrow!

Frustrated in not being able to go work out 

and needing the energy and will to do something more

(although I am up to 40 sit ups and push ups).

Heartbroken to see him struggle to even order his food

with a panicked look and confused silence, 

pleading for help.

So very grateful that I am home to "take care of things"

and that I don't have to work outside the home.

Wanting and needing to go out on a date with just the two of us. 

Happy to see little hand prints on a window

and thinking of never washing that window again.

Feeling overwhelmed at times

and knowing it could be worse

(and being grateful that it isn't).

Feeling more than fine at times

and knowing it's all just a part of my life

(and knowing that is how life goes sometimes).

What lies behind us and what lies before us

are tiny matters compared to

what lies within us.

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hoping what lies within me is enough.